Rambles

I've been a little impatient,bothered,and angry lately.

With what?

Well,so many things...with my future plans,with my super slow character growth,the kids,finances,our house that seems to be falling apart faster than we can afford to fix it. Whatever there is to be impatient,bothered,or angry about it has all surfaced these past few weeks.

I have been spending a lot of time looking over the fences of my 'neighbors'(so to speak) and wondering why God is doing such and such in their lives and not in mine. Stuff like that.

Thoughts like "God just move faster,get going,what are you waiting for anyway!" and "Lord,why does our family look so rumpled and 'theirs' looks so together,why,why,why. Tell me why!" keep rolling ,maybe more like slamming, through my mind.

*sigh*

This morning God so kindly (and maybe a little firmly) reminded me (yet again because I am slow to hear) that he is indeed in control.


Isaiah 45: 9-12

“What sorrow awaits those who argue with their Creator.
Does a clay pot argue with its maker?
Does the clay dispute with the one who shapes it, saying,
‘Stop, you’re doing it wrong!’
Does the pot exclaim,
‘How clumsy can you be?’
How terrible it would be if a newborn baby said to its father,
‘Why was I born?’
or if it said to its mother,
‘Why did you make me this way?’”

This is what the Lord says—
the Holy One of Israel and your Creator:
“Do you question what I do for my children?
Do you give me orders about the work of my hands?
I am the one who made the earth
and created people to live on it.
With my hands I stretched out the heavens.
All the stars are at my command."

Now, if this rebellious heart of mine would just stop and yield, peace would break through those pounding thoughts and I could sit back,rest and enjoy where I am at right now.Enjoy this very spot in my life,this very day. I would see what a blessed life I have.